Stirrings of an Ironheart 2

I was going to be there when you breathe your first

I was going to meet you with tears of joy

I was going to hold you close to my heart

I was going to never let anything hurt you.

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For five months I breathe for you

For five months I ate and drink for you

For five long months I rested for you

For five months my love has grown for you.

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But in a moment you were gone

In a moment I could not find you

In a moment my heart was broken into shreds

In a moment I was emptied of you

In that moment my world crumbled.

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I know you’re playing at the Lord’s feet now

But I can never get over you

My heart will bleed until I sigh my last

Then you’ll welcome me to paradise.

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(Written the first night I was home after losing my pregnancy.)